_recollections

_today marks a day i will allways remeber , a night i will never forget and many many many things (to quote Comandant Eric Lasard from Police Academy)

It has been 3 years today  since he left this Earth , a dear friend whom I’ll never forget . The man was a legend with his cowboy boots trench coat aviator sunnies  infectious smile and personality. Forever will I remember his incredible aversion to Linux, his love for music, his keen eye at the pool table (ive played once since our last game  my friend it still didn’t feel right)  his love and passion for all things cinema (for introducing me to my favorite all time film) and his daring nature when it came to striking a conversation. It hurts to this day that you left buddy it hurts like hell, should have told me should have said something but you were always too proud to admit pain, yet secretly you numbed it with candy from Satan him self.

Your love of coffee rubbed of on me , your taste for tequila never did though but the love for pizza we shared .

May you forever soar in the sky my friend may you make an angel smile and feel like you did for me and so many others_

_the night i will never forget , a turbulent time  stretched between the one I care for and the another I cannot be without. The friend I care for let his demons rule him once again , once again he said things he should not have , and once again I felt powerless to help, the frustration the anger the depression it puts me in he will never see, such a good person that is marred with a substance a substance I will gladly give up for the rest of my days just to support him ………. will you ever learn my friend that you are hurting the ones that care for you ….. and most importantly YOURSELF!!!

The one I now know I cannot be without, she has brought a smile upon me that cannot be wiped in a millennium  , has shown to me that decency care compassion strength and a beautiful touch are still rife in this world , you have reignited that spark you have reignited my being you have reignited me. I will forever regret the words said in fear of loosing you, but I will never regret that you came to me that you showed me that I’m worth it, trust me it is not a mistake for I see the world in you already a world Im not prepared to loose for there is no gain no payoff great enough for me to even consider it.

Ive said it times before and ill say it again , two life times with you would not be enough……..

In memory of Nathan Richards 1981 – 2006 may you rest in peace

your life left a mark on mine ,

a scar never to heal.