_the neccesity

_ the events that are about to unfold leave me in a state of confusion, so many have tried yet only one is  having an effect so many have failed yet one is showing promise so many have pushed yet the one that doesnt has my absolute attention…….

Im chasing it Im chasing that dream ……. trying to turn it into reality…. there is obstacles there is difficulty but I for one would burn the world to make this come true …… it hurts to think what I will do to some yet it makes me grow to know what i can be to know i can smile again to know Im at the doorstep of happines

i beg everyday every minute every second that the ice i stand on doesnt crack ,this one  slowly becoming my world, once again i let my self go once again i let someone hold my well being in their hands and in the end i know the risk is worth it.

once again my life has turned upside down once again i face difficulties but this one makes it all go away . hunger pain solitude  depression   are all fading memories when im in their presence

am i being selfish? …… yes I am im being utterly selfish cause there is nothing i want more_